My life, as I know it, has been pretty lame. I work, I spend money on shit i dont need(vodka), and watch hours and hours of mindless T.V. I started to read again, but sometimes i get a little restless and put it down to do something else. 

The other day i realized that I haven't had a serious relationship in like 2 years. Thats a little bit depressing.

Im starting to get uncomfortable living with my sister and Tara, mainly Tara. I dont know why we but heads all the time, but we do, and it can get a little exhausting. 

I found out one of my good, and only friend that I have made hear, is pregnant. I couldnt believe it. I feel even worse for her because the father is this small time wanna be gangsta retard. I mean its really hard to get "street cred" when you live in a hick town like Washougal. The people around hear never seas to amaze me.

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So, you know i have been looking for episodes or like some kind of news on the old late night show from MTV called "Undressed". Like I was pissed when i found out that you cant buy it on DVD or anything. Like that shit was my crack grade 8-10. :(

[	Current Location	|	Washougal, WA	]
[	mood	|	optimistic	]
[	music	|	The Kills - Cheap and Cheerfull	]

So, things are looking up. I'm working at subway again, they asked me to come back.  Some of the new people are kinda lame and lazy, but the others make up for that. They have me working like 37 hours a week. 

The weather up hear as been oh so nice, sunny but not hot. I wish I had someone to go to the river with. 

In other news, I should be heading down to california in july. You all will have a week to get your Jonathan fix.

[	Current Location	|	Washougal Wa	]
[	mood	|	confused	]
[	music	|	Make It Hot - Mirah	]

Im in a weird place again, i sleep all day, stay up all night. It makes me feel all wacky. I know i should be looking for a new job, but i have no motivation. Im looking in to the Portland art school, they have a fashion program, its not FIDM or Parsons but its something. I hate my stupid cycles of achievement, I'll do really well for like 6 months and then one thing will happen and it feel like the walls around me are all coming down.

[	Current Location	|	Washougal, Wa	]
[	mood	|	content	]
[	music	|	Vampire Weekend - The Kids Dont Stand A Chance	]

So my recent relationship stint was a bit of a failure. He was a nice guy and all, maybe not exactly what i look for in a boy, but i was trying not to be shallow and totally void of substance. But once again I prove myself wrong. His name was Melvyn, and no he wasnt a 65 year old man, he was 23 a manager at a nursing home. We went out, the sex was ok, but we just didnt click very well. I mean he's rap and american eagle, and I'm . . .not. Plus on our first date he showed up kinda drunk, then he took me out to eat and got more drunk. His friends where really cool, but you cant really date someone for there friends. The one thing that really bugged me was that he got really attached after like 2 dates. I know its not such a horrible thing but its kinda a turn off when a guy just starts to call you all the damn time. Tara thanks that I'm turned off by anyone thats not a ass hole. I think shes kinda right, but i mean kurt wasnt a dick, he had a good personality and we poked fun at one another. I think i just need someone that can keep up with my constant comedic criticism. I need to find that perfect northwest guy.